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Chapter one

Shadows. Darkness. Purity. Light.

One from the other. So different and yet so similar.

What is it that unites these elements and yet grants unto them an individuality unknown to man?

Why are some attracted to the silence of night and others the angels of day?

(more to come)

Good-bye Spirit Demon

It is so confusing,

How I feel about you.

I'm going around and around

On a gigantic spinning wheel of emotion.

I never meant to do this,

And I'll hope you understand.

I never meant to break your heart,

leaving you without my hand.

You know, you mean the world to me,

my Spirit Demon love.

I feel darkness creeping over me.

My emotions lost,

Have I become your foe?

I hope that you will be ever present,

as a lover or just my friend.

But now it's time to let you go.

No apology in the world,

can mend what I have done.

And even though you say you have,

your forgiveness of me is wrong.

My heart just crumbles as I write,

these words to you my "Elmo".

Tears just streaming down my cheeks,

emotions running high.

So please just know.

I LOVE YOU!

"I know this doesn't equate to much and I'm really sorry for what I've done. I'm sorry I couldn't say this in person and that no words would come to my lips when I had the chance. But like I have said before when I write things they sound a lot better. I hope you will forgive my unforgivable act. But I also want you to know, everything I every said to you, everything we ever did together meant the world. It wasn't all empty and it certainly wasn't fake. so again I'm really sorry."

Just my luck!

Have you ever wanted something so bad, that you will do anything to have it? It was like that with me and you. Since the first day we met you captured me and I wanted you at all costs no matter what. Now that I have you I'm not so sure. I fought so long and hard for you and now there is no more fight within my soul. I wish there was but there isn't. Your constant silence is choking me. I love you but I want to move forward. I want to be happy. I want to be free. You're breaking my heart and I don't know how to tell you. I want you to stop so we can go back and figure out how we got here but you won't and we can't. I love your family as much as you but today you took something from me. You did something you promised never to do. You broke my heart. I have been fighting for you for too long now, it's time I walked away but I can't because I'm trapped because I love you. You had me in tears today, choking back what I wanted to say to you, instead telling you I was fine and had to go. I don't care anymore and I don't want to fight, you're either in this or you aren't. I love/loved you but now I'm not sure...

TORN!

You are breaking my heart,
and you don't even know it.
You tear me apart,
just by appealing to my heart!

A mess of confusion,
how you feel about me.
I'm loosing control by
loosing my soul!

I could havd found out
today if I'd let you.
But 'life' got in the way.
So please tell me for certain
or just walk away!